I'm feminine helplessness, in lavender darkness, tethered taut and yet comfortable

Forced to wait, alone with my thoughts, doubts and fears

Here again where I shouldn't be, but the only place I truly belong

Taking a desperate, kinky vacation from my perfect little vanilla world

As usual, I start to lecture myself, condescending tone

Admonishment, for not being satisfied with love, success and all the trappings

But then, the emptiness swells, filling my heart with sadness

This dark craving, this need that again cannot be denied any longer

How I am so addicted to this evil fantasy world

Like a wicked little Alice, needing her fetish fix, to be fixed in chains and manacles

Submission for me is everything, the core of my very being

This truest self that my love and no one else gets, can understand

That is with the exception of one for whom I wait, bittersweet longing

Who has secured me in these bonds, answered my desperate pleas with a bright red ball, gagged silence

He knows this good little girl is really so very bad

In need of a severe spanking, and oh so much more

Is not afraid to … me, making me His damsel in distress

So that my Sir can indulge His most wicked desires, liberate my most intense ecstacy thru my four favorite letters, BDSM

When on my knees before Him, I feel adored, special

For I become the center of His brutal but loving universe

Our hours of play are a perverted rollercoaster of exhilaration

Mixed with headgames, discipline, and unbridled lust

Just when I think I've experienced all of His tricks, endured all of His tests

He toys with with me in a new way, pushing my envelope, but never triggering my safe word

My trust in Him is complete, allowing my Master to steal my very breath away

Only to give it back just in the nick of time, and then repeat

I am always blue, … when our time is up, when I must leave

Begrudgingly going back to my life with fading bruises and a deliciously painful reminder when I sit down

Finally getting home, I kiss my lover and flash him a contented smile he thinks is for him

But my mind is already daydreaming, longing for the next time with the One who truly knows, accepts, and loves all of me

How can the two be so opposed

When put together curls your toes

The slap of a whip stings the buns

Then a rub makes you come undone

Oh the blindfold is a scary trick

Wondering about the naked dick

Hands tightly tied behind the back

Ready or not for the whip's slap

Bound and gagged face up on the mat

Wonder where the clothespins are at

The pinch of a nipple has a dual effect

Pleasure or pain it's hard to dissect

Uncertain when the … will stop

But enjoying the massage on the cock

At long last a happy ending is near

As you cum while being bit on the ear

He was a bit upset with me when he said with a … off voice.

"Baby you know that's my pussy, right?"

And I turned and said to him. "NOOO its MY PUSSY"

inching my way closer to his face I whisper

"and I get to say WHO gets to touch it, and IF its you.

I get to say what I want you to do TO ME.

and how I want you to do it.

with your mouth, your lips, your tongue.your hands.

ALLLL OVER MY BODY. kissing and touching me,

til I begin to get REAL WET.

and then I'LL say for you to lick and taste my "sexy lips".

and THEN tell you WHEN to put that hard throbbing cock into MY wet HuNgRyyy PUSSY. then I will let you slide your cock in MY wet tight walls, thrusting deeper and HARDer.

I will be THE ONE to say IF I will LET you make ME cummm ALL over your cock, to LET you feel MY PUSSY quiver tighter around your cock.

i WILL make you cummmm til you feel yourself melting deep inside of ME, feeling helplessly weak. and YET wanting Mmmmore".

I then got up and turn my back to him. As I walk away, I think to myself "Oh, but only if he knew my DIRTLY little thoughts coursing through my mind."

I then have myself a few hits of my joint (-;sexy little pot head. slowly winding down, I sat myself by my computer, feeling ah sooo dammn good and high as a kite >what a lightweight. I turn my Itunes on. listening to my sexy soulful music. Can you hear it too?. the words of the songs slowly open a corner, far and deep in my mind. I begin to write. to express a very small corner of my thoughts. dark and sinful thoughts, naughty thoughts.....dripping from my mind.

naughty thoughts that trigger feelings that move like lightening through my spine, giving me the soft tingly sin-sation of when my cream begins to flow.

oh very slowly and sweetly like honey, soft and sweet upon the tongue. surging deep into my walls of pleasure. Driving my hands to want and need to touch and caress the spot that brings onto my body, the overwhelming desire that charges through, like heat from fire.

thoughts of how I want the strong hands and arms of a man holding and caressing my body, mixed in with feelings of guilt. .mmmmmm ...knowing that my thoughts are not of my husband. . ..they are of a strange man.

I imagine him gently guiding my hands with his, wanting me to run my hands across his chest. I kiss his wet soft lips. making my mouth water with LUST.

I begin to lick his nipple, swirling my tongue around it. then my hungry tongue leads me down his abs, I grasp his hips with my hands as I slowly move further down. feeling his STRONG desire near my wet soft lips, I lightly touch HIM with my soft hands, using my fingertips to take from his sacred white cream. tasting it in my tongue. . .I hunger for mmmore.

my mouth craves to receive of his delicious potency. tempted to devour, I force myself to slow down. making sure to savor every morsel.

holding HIM in my hands and my mouth I slowly begin to stroke. . ..slowwwly. . ..squeeezing. making him tremble with ecstasy. he holds onto the back of my neck with one hand and with his other he begins to fondle my breast.

I feel his strength take over me, as he pushes himself further. I hear him mmmoan with pleasure. He begins to move faster and deeper as he HARDENS in my mouth. wetter and wetter and wetter it gets. he groans louder as he nears his peak.

OH, how I want him to give me the bliss streaming through his body. . .mmmm. . ..he begins to lose control over himself as he finally reaches the climax of his escapade with me.

aaaahhhhh he cries out loud. he quivers helplessly, pouring himself into my hungry mouth. he loses all his might and becomes weak in my arms. I lick my lips with my tongue. .mmmm ..

for now, he has quelled my insatiable thirst.

life is a tease

just need to please

my tongue and yours

our hips and contours

your breast against mine

I take you from behind

your legs slide between

so tender and obsene

your juices run down me

a glass mirror to see

your soft voice and deep moan

I supply eager willing bone!

By: Nikki