n838's Blog

I need a man.

Not a thug.

Not a little boy.

Not a jailbird.

Not a baby daddy.

Not a dude who would rather get his hustle on then get it on with me.

I need a man.

A real man.

One who's willing to share with me.

Not his money, but his heart.

Not his car, but his soul.

Not his home, but his love.

I need a man.

A gentleman first and foremost,

With a soft touch and gentle hands.

But one who's not afraid to put a nigga in his place if need be.

I need a man.

One who can look at another female

Then look at me and tell me

I'm still the most beautiful thing

He'll ever see.

I need a man.

Faithful and true.

One who wants me for me.

Not just my body or my sexuality.

Not someone who's looking for a trophy.

But one who accepts me for the whole package.

Intelligent,

Funny,

Strong, and

Strong–minded.

A man like he used to be.

I need a man.

But, does he exist outside of these pages?

Outside of these words?

I don't know.

You tell me.

I need a man.

I'm not looking for perfection.

I'm just looking for a man

Who can handle his business.

An educated man.

Not one with a degree in street pharmacology.

I need a man.

I don't need to be taken care of,

I can handle me.

I don't want or need to live

Off someone else's generosity.

I need a man.

Not a baby.

I don't want to do

What a mother should've done

I don't have kids

And don't wanna raise someone else's son.

I need a man.

Someone I can respect.

Who'll do the same for me.

But, does this man truly exist?

I don't know.

You tell me.

I need a man.

Not a sugar daddy.

Not a playa with 2 or 3 other chicks on the side.

Someone who wants to be with me

And only me.

I need a man.

If this is asking too much

Then y'all just let me know.

Loyalty,

Independence,

Honesty,

Integrity.

This is all I'm asking for.

I need a man.

Not a mama's boy.

Not someone who lives

In grandma's basement

Or Uncle’s house.

I need a man.

To stand alone

And not depend on me

For anything but love.

Is this man out there somewhere?

I don't know.

You tell me.